life

It aint that easy ya know....u make a choice..Both good and bad..for me well lots of bads.Maybe i shouldnt be that rude..i mean they are really nice people.Guess i just didnt allow myself to see that.If i was like john...DAMN!oh wells life is like that ..ups and downs..But cmon ya gotta move on in life.Like what all the soldiers of the gulf war say.bring it on.So i think i should try to forget what i did to them.But hard to..........its like a bad dream..memory only thing is it sucks being me.

Meanwhile its been a LONG LONG LONG WHILE since i used this blog.will try to blog more..my parents lar....control like hell.I must study hard...then maybe i will get to be with the top guns in JC..ONE BLOODY CHANCE LEFT..no regrets.anyway i dont know if i should hate those people like bernice or should I not...

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Some times part of me feels lie screaming.!!! Can u hear me?Im real sorry for all the shit i done to u people.But its already too late...Why...Its too late to regret.But if theres a will theres a way?

Why

I cant damn belive it.They all did freaking better then me.Its not...why..ok thorugh out the who year.Im never focus.Damn it,tristina they all are taking double pure AT LEAST...this cant happen.but...still i have to give it up to them.O levels i cant make the same mistake.F*** it!!!!!!!!!! WHY them WHy not me!! FUBAR